Journeying Inward: Finding Freedom in Solitude
We often find ourselves at a crossroads, facing huge decisions that can shape our future. These decisions can be daunting, and not everyone will understand our choices. However, sometimes, we must embark on an unaccompanied journey driven by an internal battle that threatens the very essence of our being. It's a battle that might be invisible to the world, yet it's as honest and cancerous as any physical illness. In this blog, I will discuss my profound experience of making significant choices that prioritized my soul's well-being, even when it has been a solitary journey.
The Silent Battle Within
Life's battles are not always visible. Our struggles can be internal, hidden beneath smiles and seemingly everyday routines. It could be an unhealthy job, unhealthy relationships, or a life that doesn't align with your true self. Like a cancer of the soul, these silent battles slowly eat away at our happiness and inner peace. We may appear fine on the surface, but we know something is wrong deep down.
The Decision that Sets You Free
When you're caught in this silent battle, you might realize that the only way to save yourself is to make a big, life-altering decision. It could mean leaving a secure job to pursue your peace, ending relationships that were not good for you, or walking away from a life that no longer conforms to you. These choices can be terrifying because they will definitely involve stepping into the unknown.
However, making such decisions can also be incredibly liberating. It's like breaking free from chains that have held you prisoner. You start seeing the world with new eyes, terrifying yet compelling, and even the simplest pleasures become sources of massive joy. Once burdened by the cancerous weight of agreement, your soul begins to heal.
The Reality of Loneliness of Transformation
While the decision to break free from your silent battle is freeing, it can also be one of the loneliest seasons of your life. Not everyone will understand your choices. Family and friends may offer well-meaning advice, but their worries and concerns might cloud their perspective. And friendships undoubtedly fade. You will definitely feel like an outsider, like you're walking a path no one can see. But that is okay. It does not mean you need to question the urgency you had deep in your soul.
Embracing this loneliness is a necessary part of the journey. It's an opportunity to connect with your inner self and discover who you truly are without the influences of others. Solitude becomes your companion, allowing you to introspect, grow, and become more resilient.
The beauty of trekking the path of regrettable and mystifying decisions is that you gain authentic compassion and empathy. These gifts often emerge from personal lapses.
Finding Strength in Solitude
During this desolate season, you'll discover an abundance of strength within yourself that you never knew existed. You'll learn to trust your intuition and to make decisions that align with your true self. You'll eventually find like-minded people who have walked similar paths and understand the importance of staying true to one's soul.
In the end, the decision to take back your peace and fight the silent battle that was corrupting your soul might be the bravest thing you will ever do. It's an act of self-love and self-respect that can lead to a life filled with authenticity, purpose, and fulfillment. Remember that even when others don't understand, your soul knows the way, guiding you toward a brighter, more divine destiny. Embrace loneliness as a necessary step on your journey to self-discovery and ultimate freedom.
The Hope
Paradoxically, it is a seeming aloneness that draws us nearer to God. It is a season of growth, self-discovery, and deepening faith. As we place our hope, comfort, and trust in God, we find that even in solitude, we are never truly alone. He is with us, guiding and preparing us for the unknown journey ahead. So, embrace the solitude, knowing we uncover a profound connection with the One who is always there, our unwavering source of hope, comfort, and trust.
As I wrap up this blog on embracing solitude, I want to leave you a personal note. Along this path, I've realized that recovery begins with self-forgiveness, self-compassion, and self-love. Remember, we are all human, prone to mistakes and imperfections.
Embrace the power of self-forgiveness, for it allows us to release the weight of past decisions and move forward with a lighter heart.
Cultivate self-compassion, recognizing that the road to growth is often paved with challenges. Be gentle with yourself during moments of struggle, just as you would with a dear friend.
Lastly, let self-love be your unwavering beacon of faith. Embrace your journey with all its highs and lows, for it is a testament to your faith, resilience, and the tenacious ability of the human spirit.
With Love,
Carmen Elisa